i hate this feeling, when you have accepted that things will never work out right now, it just gets harder. since we know and accepted already, why is it so damn hard still?

and to top it off, i'm listening to The Promise by beverly craven. intro-ed by hongs!
it's such a sappy love song that i cried. zzz.

finals was good, and we went to suntec after that.
vik hy and i talked about the places that remind us so much of the past, and it's nerve-wrecking to see friends in this state too.

ade and i bought 2 books each too!
bought 5 ppl you meet in heaven, this book i've waited long enough to buy, seriously.
i just didn't get around to buying it that's all.

and im sorry for doing this to you, really i am. but i don't know any way to make it less harsh on you. memories last, but reality bites. reality bites my ass off.

it's up to me now, it's breaking point, and it's all up to me.
you know usually when you don't see any hope in something, it's so much easier..
i've always thought to myself, i've come this far, i'm not gonna put it all away just yet..not yet.
but although it's been quite a ride this year, i don't see the reason in doing what i should.
give me reasons to not believe, throw a few doubts on my path, show me that there's absolutely no damn reason...just, just URGH.

but sometimes even the most wisest of men don't see what's in their path. i guess i'm headed along that way, although i'm quite dumb. :)

i'm listening to Fly Away - Corrinne May. how apt, really.

- even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart..
- i love you, too much to make you stay...
- baby, fly away...